Author/philanthropist Janet Mbugua is getting candid about how she deals with her struggles and she is baring out the ugly side of things.

The mother of 2, in a candid video she shared on her Instagram page disclosed how she cries herself to sleep sometimes, especially when going over some of the things that have shattered her over the past few years.

Janet highlighted that she allows herself to weep in a bid to reconcile her past self who didn't get to mourn and let out her frustrations with her present self who is doing work towards healing them both.

“Someone just asked me how I am. First off thank you, I'm pretty good... and I haven't said that in a long time. I still have my moments when I am trying to resolve what I have been through over the last few years.

I still have my moments when I cry a lot to sleep, and now I do it because I feel like a lot of crying I am doing lately is the unexpressed grief that I never got to do," the former prime time news anchor candidly said.

She went on to reveal that back then she was so intent of putting up a facade, living in smokes and mirrors trying to show up for everyone else but herself. The notion of, "big girls don't cry" deeply ingrained in her brain.

"I held so much inside because I had to be a big girl, be a mum, and be so many things but now when the tears come I just let them flow and that is healing to me,” Janet said.

The former Citizen TV news anchor turned digital content creator went on to reassure her over 1.3 million followers and fans that she was doing okay and so much better but was not yet ready to discuss certain aspects of her journey but would eventually open up fully at some point.

Janet went on to add that her spiritual side had been shaken over the years but it was an ongoing

“My faith with God is an ongoing journey, and I feel good because if something bad comes along, that is part of character development which I think we need to normalize.

Everyone will face it; the question is, is it going to grow you, or is it going to stall you? This is not exclusive to just relationships,” the mother of 2 expressed.

Back in May 2022, a close source whispered to Mpasho that Janet Mbugua had already started divorce proceedings. The case seemed to have stalled for a while with the two remaining separated but reuniting once in a while in a bid to co-parent healthily.  

Janet and her estranged husband Eddie Ndichu tied the knot in a colourful wedding ceremony back in 2015 at Chaka Ranch in Nyeri county. They allegedly ended their union a few years ago.

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